"I think I know better, I think I know how it should be."

Yet another adventurous week in the mish. Lol actually ... felt like we did NOTHING all week. When you get a new missionary you spend lots of time bringing them up to speed plus an extra hour of comp study. That all on top of those 10 hours of general conference viewing this weekend, making me feel a lil lazy this week. But, my brain tends to run 5 miles too fast, so it makes sense. But oh man, I love my greenie (brand new missionary just starting). Heavenly Father 100% had my back on that one. I was so stressed, but it has actually been better than before. To be honest, I felt so lonely last transfer. Like don't get me wrong, I was still good and loving missionary work, I just didn't feel like I had a friend. I think it will be a really positive thing for our companionship. Once again, I was wrong and God was right, thus my song lyric title. The lyric is from Nik Day. So, this week I've been hit with some good humbling, realizing I need to put my trust in the Lord's will, recognizing my way isn't always the right way. I can be pretty stubborn, but I'm working on it. Greenie energy is SO fun. Oh my gosh. She's just excited for the work, mixed with a little "deer in the headlights". I've been reminiscing on my first few weeks in the mission. That was such a weird time, but so good too. But the energy has just made me realize how much I really do love my mission. Tears, hard work, happiness, anger, homesickness, and all. All of it. I've been filled with gratitude this week about all I've learned on my mission. General conference this weekend was a highlight, of course, and I wanted to touch on a few things from it. (for those reading who may not know about General Conference, twice a year our church leaders speak to us about Jesus and other faith-filled topics over a 2-day weekend. It's broadcast through TV and internet so it's easy to find a way to watch.) I "went" to conference with 8 questions that I wanted answered, and by the end of the first session, I had answers to all of them. Funny enough, they were all the same answer. I feel like every talk was just about love. Loving God, loving others, loving ourselves. I realized that the answer to each of my questions was more love. I make so many mistakes everyday that could be avoided if I could just love a little more. So that's the goal, to just love. Love God, my companions, my family, the people we teach, our ward members, the people that reject us, the people that drop us, and myself. Another thing I've thought a lot about this week is my love for the scriptures. Then, Elder Valenzuela talked in conference about "delighting in the scriptures." I realized that a year ago, I didn't even read my scriptures regularly, let alone love them. I realized that the reason I love them, is because I have spent 8 months reading them and learning from them and relying on them for strength. It is such a beautiful thing. It may not seem profound, but I realized the only way you can delight in the scriptures is if you actually read them. It's a lesson I can take with me through the rest of life. When Elder Alliauid came to our mission, he said that a mission is like the MTC for life. I'm starting to see how true that is. So to end off, I wanted to share 2 scriptures that brought me so much comfort as I read them on a morning I felt a tad overwhelmed- 2 Corinthians 3:5 "Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God." Alma 26:12 "Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever." When I read these verses, I felt immense comfort knowing I'm not all on my own. It is through my Savior, Jesus Christ, and my Heavenly Father that I can be sufficient and strong. I couldn't do this without them, and I wouldn't want to. There is so much to remember in mission life, and sometimes the pressure hits. But as I slow down and remember God is on my side, I know that I truly can see many mighty miracles even as I make mistakes and forget things. I can't wait for the next 10 months. I can't imagine loving the scriptures more, yet I know it is possible. There is still so much I don't know and so many times people know more about the Bible than me, but I'm so grateful for these words. As one of our sweet ward members says "I thank Heavenly Father for letting me borrow His books." Don't forget that Jesus loves you, Sister Wallace Pics: 1. Bye Sister Crane!! She was in my MTC district and got shipped down to serve in El Paso, Texas 2. Got our new greenie, Sister Olsen!! 3. Love this girl 4. General Conference pizza party! 5-9 Balloon Fiesta!!